He is Dead

I don't understand my self why i hadn't felt any pain. Maybe because, i psyche it then in the first place, that sooner or later he would end up his life. It's fear for him, he know it's nearer and knows the cause for his soon death. That is life, he just gone first. I understand now how much he love his wife and his daughter. Untill the last time we met in the hospital which is just coincidentaly for my father also admitted, i haven't ask the question why he keep it a secret or did he treat me as his friend in the first place?, its harder to believe he is married and have a daughter rather on he had died. Funny, but i always treated him as one of the good friends i've known...i had shared time with him more than any guy friend i'd known. but life is like that, i'm thankful that i learned so much from him, that he become part of my life...Mcvonn thankyou so much.......